Date: 0412 New Space time
I have been in love with my work for a good while now. But as of yesterday, this changed. I cannot believe that the hot shot movie star I am assisting is Christopher Yuy. I honestly wanted to go to my superior and request a shift of responsibility. However, as one of the top ranking officers in my building, I do not have that right. I also don't want to give that bastard the satisfaction.
I truly never thought I would see Christopher again. After leaving Lee, I felt that all ties with the district would be gone, leaving Serenity, Lilly and Donovan as my only links. Part of me is still frightened by him.. I think I have this uncanny ability to truly see who he is. Maybe it has something to do with the essence of Shinigami I gained from my father which has become more powerful as of late. But.. it is like I can smell his desire for blood. MY BLOOD.
I know I will have to tread lightly, as it seems like even the smallest comment will set us off like gasoline to the fire. I know he hates me for the things I did to Lee.. but I don't think he knows how much to blame he really is. And, irregardless, it is none of his god damned business how Lee and I run our relationship. I suppose I will avoid all topics related to Lee and Lilly as much as possible while we have to work together. With my nature as it is, I know it will be hard to put a dam up to stop the tidal wave of all the feelings and anger I have.
We are not 15 anymore, we are both adults in our early twenties. So, I am of the belief that both of us should keep our shit in order. But... if he drags Lee into this.. I am not sure how long I will be able to swallow my pride. He took Lee from me.. and now Lee is living with him as he used to. God.. I still love him, but I cannot live in the District anymore. I don't have the power or strength of emotion to do so. I think it may be time, however to pay Lee a visit.
Signing off. at 0200 hours.
Lieutenant Andrea D. Maxwell