August 5th

I still feel lost, even though I’ve returned to my family. The sickness is still inside of me. Deep within myself I know this is finally the real Salem, not a twisted perversion of Shun’s creation. Still as happy as I am to be back, a twisted part of me misses Shun. I don’t know how he’s managed to do this to me. The bond between Salem and I is fixed. I’m supposed to be free of Shun, free besides the children.

I don’t even know how I feel about them. I remember my father’s words, of not holding a child’s origin’s against them. But I have nothing left in me to give consideration to them one way or the other. I need to recover what I’ve lost inside myself, I need to regain my balance before anything else can move forward.

She may be messed up, but she is trying to keep perspective about herself and what she is currently apable of. It will be interesting when the son gets older to see how she reacts to him.

Ya I'm not really sure how she will. I think salem should try to have a relationship with them tho. And possibly she should see Ling and her father, I think she might open up to them more for some reason...