Its over finally. The nightmare I’d been living in has ended. Everyone survived, for better or worse. I almost managed to kill Shun, to purge myself and the planet of his filth. He escaped by a margin and only because of this cursed bond between us. His wounds weakened me enough that I was prevented from finishing the kill. God I feel like I traded one nightmare for another. I have his spawn growing inside of me, I can feel the very essence of it.
God I don’t know how Salem can bear the sight of me and be so willing to accept this-this thing growing inside of me. I just want to cut it out of me, I want no part of him, none! I will not be a good mother, I never even wanted children. Only for Salem would I have considered it. Shun is using me and twisting me to his own will even now. I can feel a part of myself care about the child, to want to protect it! I’m being betrayed by a deeper part of myself. Even now I’m trapped by the threat he holds over my head. I can’t bear to let something happen to Salem.
I don’t know what to do about this child, it should be destroyed. Perhaps… since he has forced me to carry this child I will, to protect Salem, but it will die before its first breath once its born.